FALLING

TIME IS NOT MOVING FAST ENOUGH. FOR I JUST STAND HERE WAITING, WANTING TO GO ON; BUT IS UNABLE.

I’M GOING TO STEP FORWARD, BUT TIME IS HOLDING ME BACK. I’M WATCHING THAT HAND FOR THE MOVE.

IF TIME WAS TO INCREASE I COULD LEAP FORWARD AND CATCH MY BALANCE, OR LEAP TO FAR AND STILL FALL?

TIME IS CREEPING BY, SO SLOW BEFORE MY EYES; I’M GOING TO FALL. FALL, YES; I’M FALLING BACKWARDS, OF IS IT JUST THAT TIME IS PASSING ME BY?

FALLING, BUT MY EYES ARE CLOSING. I KNOW I’M STANDING, WHERE I’M NOT SURE. IT’S IF TIME HAS SOME HOW GRABBED ME AND MISPLACED ME.

OR IS IT THAT I’M SLEEPING, STANDING; AND IS ABOUT TO FALL. TIME IS NOT MOVING FAST ENOUGH. FOR I JUST STAND HERE WAITING, WANTING TO GO ON, BUT I’M UNABLE.

OR IS IT SIMPLY THAT I HAVE ALREADY FALLEN, AND NOW JUST GOING THOUGH THE MOTION OF FALLING?

JUNE 29, 1980